Am I chasing ghosts or are they chasing me?

I am sick of this, sick of myself. I am lonely. I want a freind, thats what I need.

I am sick of men....because although I always look for freindship in a relationship with a male....they want nothing of the sort. They might pretend that they do at first......but like a friend of mine once said "once their foot is in the door, they change completely".

At first they seem interesting and genuinly interested in your thoughts and ideas, your outlook on life. At first it always seems that the relationship promises some true interface.

After a while, once they feel comfortable, then its shoes up on the sofa and turn on the tv. Or "oh if your watching that then I am going out with my mates."

What are we to men? What am I?

They dont look for friendship.....or interface, They look for a hole, free meals, a clean house, a safe port. They couldnt give a toss about what we think, are interested in.....

I am bored of this.....

I need sex too. Now I am like "if you want to fuck just say that" Dont give me your fucking speil. They seem to want us to fall in love with them. I am so bored.

Or they actually dont want to believe that sex is all that they are about. Or a cooked meal, or a safe haven to come back too from the adventure of the outside world. They want to believe that they are so much more......when they are not. They dont want to believe that they are actually superficial and futile.

I am bored of this....why do I search for this fantasy? It is exactly this, a fantasy. Men dont know how to be friends it seems.

has anybody noticed that there are political lesbians but never have I heard of political gays?

I am so much more than just sex.......